Saturday, December 24, 2016

A Good Girly Cry



Yesterday I posted a list of those things I love about my sissy self.  At the top of the list was, “I can’t help crying; even in public (I love a good girly cry).”  This was first on the list because I sat down to write it right after I had a good cry.  I was still wiping tears from my face as I started.

I have always cried at the drop of a hat, even in public.  I can’t help it.  It’s guaranteed at weddings and very often happens in movie theaters.  At least in theaters it is dark, no one is looking at my face and I can hide it, the fact that someone perceived as male is crying.  It’s all part of being an effeminate man or, as I prefer, “girl.”  I recall once, a friend’s 12 year old son in public yelling to the world, “Look, [name] is crying!”

Despite this, I really do love this about me.  It so fits my girly personality and I can’t help who I am.  I used to hang with a group of girls that treated me as “one of the girls.”  I used to enjoy renting chick flicks with them and all of us crying our eyes out.  It feels great sharing a good cry with girlfriends.  Even when alone, I love the fact that I can break into sobs if something is so beautiful.

While crying at something beautiful can feel so good, I cry at sad and hurtful things too.  While this may not feel good, I honestly believe that the release is healthy and I would feel a whole lot worse without it.  It is one of the many reasons that I’m so glad I’m a girl and not a man.  I can use this release to be healthier and feel better.

Let me tell you about my good cry I mentioned above, just before writing my last post.  It was a sad cry but cathartic nonetheless.  I am a Jeopardy fan and last week there was a contestant competing who was dying of stage IV colon cancer.  It was her lifelong dream to be on Jeopardy and her goal was to win at least $100,000 to donate to cancer research.  At the end of the program last Wednesday, after she was defeated after winning multiple days (after attaining her goal and winning $103,801), the Host, Alex Trebek, came on after the credits and announced that Cindy had passed.  Here is the clip on Youtube.


(There are some ending credits rolling before Alex comes on.)

Here I go again.  Just writing this and I have a couple of tears running down my cheek.


Men sometime cry but women and girls do it often.  I cry at the drop of a hat, usually because I find beauty in something or I’m overcome with good emotions.  I love my girly releases and glad that I’m a girl.  I’ll read a romance or watch that chick flick, with my box of Kleenex handy.  It’s too bad men can’t enjoy this luxury.

I LOVE a good Girly Cry!

1 comment:

  1. I so understand Gwen, it could be grief still, after our 32 year life that ended two years ago. Knowing the changes that I’m going through as I grow into Jennifer I accept some crying but goodness me, I cry at pictures that trigger as well as music oh my gosh… thank you for your beautifully worded strength ❤️‍🩹
    Jennifer
    Jennifermaelives.blogspot.com

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